January 21, 2018
It is currently snowing in Flagstaff, Arizona. It is a beautiful time to write. Lately, I’ve been thinking about my past friendships and how I can be a better friend. I’ve never been the person with a large group of friends. I switched schools a lot, so I don’t have many lost-lasting close friendships. Sometimes I blame myself for a lost relationship. I think it’s naive to assume it was the other person’s fault. However, I am learning that it is equally naive to assume that it is my own fault.
I’ve always been told that people grow apart. Nonetheless, I’ve always been the person who tried to prevent that from happening. It happened so often in the past that I’ve forced friendships. It was like forcing the wrong puzzle pieces together. It is toxic to stay in a relationship where I am not wanted and it is selfish to force someone else to do so. You have to realize that you may not be someone’s cup of tea. You may be the person someone needed to cut loose to move on with his or her life. Realize that doesn’t make you a horrible person or less worthy of friendship. You are simply better suited for someone else. There are billions of people in this world and you have so many days ahead of you. You don’t know who you will meet and how you will impact each other’s lives.
Kayla J. Phillips